I had a couple days off on this run in OKC and got to go see our drummer Randy's kid, JC play a t-ball game. Randy and his wife have a charity that has built a special needs accessible baseball field. I took a bunch of pics but wont have access to my camera for a couple of days because I left it on the bus. I will post pics soon, I promise. The field is awesome, it has a special rubber baseline so that kids in chairs can get around the bases. They have done a great job with it, and it was a blast to finally be able to see it. Folks from all around Oklahoma drive a long way to be able to utilize such a great resource.
Like I said, give me a couple of days, and I'll have some pictures for you.
I've been reading quite a bit lately. There seems to be this innate desire in me to have all the answers for this little one coming. Not only specific answers, but general answers about why things are the way they are when she gets old enough to comprehend things. I want to have honest answers for her. Sometimes I sit and hope that maybe things will get better and I wont have to answer certain questions. Regardless of what your beliefs are on how technology is turning our individual societies into a "global culture", it's happening. Our children will have much more interaction with other children around the globe. Just like everything else, there will be good and evil to come out of this. For instance, will my daughter be socially interacting with Iraqi children? Will the discussion of why our soldiers are still in Iraq come up? What am I supposed to say to that? "Well honey, you see, if we hadn't occupied your friends country you wouldn't be having this conversation with her." Maybe, but I wouldn't be telling the truth. Maybe half the truth. Obviously this discussion is years down the road. But that's the kind of things that have been occupying my mind. Do I raise her up with a strong nationalist mindset? The Pilgrims did no wrong, and our founding fathers were all Christians with only the best intentions? Somehow I see this myth beginning to fade already, and sometimes I wonder if it is for the best. The last thing I want to do is to instill a false sense of pride and superiority. Luckily I was raised with a strong sense of accepting everyone as who they are. Hopefully I can do the same. I know a ton of questions she will have to answer on her own, and I will only be there to help guide her along. That in itself is the hard part to grasp. I'm sure I aged my parents way beyond their years trying to answer a few on my own, so I'll probably be dealt some of my own medicine:) But I'll do the best I can in preparing to help her make the decisions that send her down not the safest path, but the most righteous. It's getting late, so I'm going to have to continue this post tomorrow night. remember when I started this, I said I was using this as a venting tool, so it might be a little scattered. As I read back over it, it is just that. But maybe I can tie it all up...maybe. Until next time, Peace and Love.
Hi Bub! Oh, I can't WAIT to meet that little girl of yours:) Still hoping to come at the end of May/beginning of June for a little visit by myself. Yes, having little ones does make me want to clarify things in my mind/heart too before I have to start giving answers. However, I feel thankful that as they are growing, we are growing too and hopefully gaining wisdom along the way. I love you and know you are going to be a wonderful, loving, doting daddy. Jen
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